By Sabrina Samples
When I was with Tabetha, I was an eager new writer excited about a publisher taking interest in my work. I was excited about all of the potential things I would be able to do through my writing. But then that all fell to shit.
I then went on to work with Jacqueline who had me believing owning a company would make my writing better. I would be able to get all of my books out there along with filling my need to help the other struggling authors like I used to. But that went to shit also. I spent three years of my life trying to find my place in a writing world that kept wanting to tear me down, make me feel like I was just another author who couldn’t get anywhere in life because no one cares about my writing.
During the course of the three years where I was with either Tabetha or Jacqueline, I struggled a lot with depression and toward the end of my contact with either of them, I tried to kill myself. This is not something I have told many people. I was in the center of so much drama, so many lies, and I just couldn’t handle the fact that not only was I duped once but twice by people who claimed to be my friend and who said they loved my writing.
But that is not what this post is about. This post is about what has happened in my life since I broke all ties with both of these ladies.
Right after I blocked the last of everyone who was attacking me (on behalf of Jacqueline and the lies she told about me) I was at the lowest point of my life. Every day was a struggle to wake up and get out of bed. But I did it. I gave up on writing for a while because I just didn’t have the energy to put words to paper and hear how people loved my writing again while they stabbed me in the back. I was that way for almost two months.
But then one day I woke up and realized I am only hurting myself by keeping my words to myself. So from there I started writing more and I self published for a few months. Then I heard about this really great publisher. Of course I was hesitant at first, but I didn’t want to walk away from everything I have been working to do. So I did weeks of research, talking to current and past authors with them. Once I felt comfortable enough, I submitted and was accepted within a week.
Since I have signed with my current publisher, I now have three books out, two coming out in the next few months and I am currently working on my sixth book.
To make things even better in my life, I recently went to my first signing and I ended up selling all of the books I took with me! I am in a better spot now than I was a year ago. I no longer struggle to wake up every day, I no longer cry myself to sleep at night and I no longer have to worry about who I am going to have to defend myself against today. I am mentally and physically stronger than I have been since the first day I met Tabetha Jones and my life fell into the spiral of chaos.
So please do not take this post as a way of me attacking Tabetha or Jacqueline. This is my way of saying there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You will have something better if you walk away from it all. I am living, breathing proof of that.